Sheanah's Poems

 Tightly Knit
 

I see you there in the distance
far between a stretch of the unknown
I'm standing, waiting here for you
in this haze I wont let you walk alone.

The minutes are moving faster now
the days continue to come and go
my mind is spacing, my heart racing
I am scared and I think you should know.

Do you see the mess swarming all around us?
can you feel the sickness going round?
the stench is rising from beneath somewhere
warning signs are pointing toward something to be found.

People are failing to remember to truly love
we get caught in instant gratification, in selfish love
there isn't enough room for all this impatience
we forgot this world is a place we are all part of.

I'm twisting and turning and wringing with stress
the negative in this world I don't understand
I'm caught up, I'm scared, I'm reaching for you
my beloved, my friend, lets walk hand in hand.

Even in this distance and stretch of time
between a past of pleasantries and a future we don't know
my soul has been marked with an imprint of you
so that in the darkness, for you I can glow.

Keep moving forward, there are many things to be done
there are plans ahead of us to which we must commit
so if, like me, you find you freeze knee deep in fear
remember no matter the construct, our souls are tightly knit

 In Times Of

My soul drifts aimlessly in times of hopelessness.
It searches tirelessly for meaning and truth ...
Yet finds no direction.

My heart bleeds quietly in times of loneliness.
It yearns to find warmth and happiness ...
Yet it somehow eludes me.

My eyes seek out visions in times of want.
They gaze endlessly through the blackness that envelops them ...
Yet they cannot see the light.

My ears listen earnestly in times of silence.
They search for familiar sounds to comfort and console ...
Yet they cannot penetrate the darkness that surrounds me.

My arms reach out frantically in times of despair.
They seek strength and compassion to enfold me ...
Yet they find nothing substantial to enwrap.

My mind cries out desperately in times of solitude.
It poses intense questions that demand answers ...
Yet there are none to be found.

My hand reaches out earnestly in these times of confusion.
It dials the number of a familiar and calming voice ...
And gratefully, my lifeline to sanity ... remains intact.

Where Were You

Where Were You..
There was a time in my life when I needed you, but you weren’t there.
A time in my life when I felt as if no-one did care.
I was alone, depressed, and in desperate need of someone to love.
My life was in ruins; I’d just about had enough.


When I needed you the most of all, you were nowhere to be found.
I was chained by regrets; I was terminally bound.
Nothing in my life was as it had been before, it was different now.
Everything difficult, as I wiped my brow.


I called for you. Yet I never heard your reply.
You never came for me, I don’t understand why.
I was there for you, when you needed me.
Why can’t you do the same and set me free.


My body ached for your presence to be around my side.
But you never were, you choose to hide.
As life for me weakened, and your pride grew strong,
I realized that when I chose you, I’d been wrong.


All this time I spent thinking about you was a total waste.
I just wish I would of known before I’d sampled evil taste.
Misinterpretations of you, fully clouded my mind.
The memories I made with you, I’ll easily leave behind.


You’re just a nice body, with a pretty little face.
Nothing more, except for shame and disgrace.
I once thought that you were the one.
But how quickly dreams fade as trust comes undone.


What’s done is done. And what’s past is in the past.
Nothing can be changed now, my heart has been trashed.
There was a time I loved you so very much.
Now I cringed at your voice, and most especially your touch.


Dead, gone, past away. It’s the way things must end.
The time has come, I’ve got my bags, I’m headed into the wind.
Though we once had a spark, it never made a flame.
So I’ll be leaving you, and we will never be the same.


Slowly Fading Away

She goes about her day to day

and does her duties to perfection,
She cries alone and works her way

through fears and self rejection.
No one knows this angel

is carrying around such grief,
If they only saw a glimpse of things

they'd sigh in disbelief.
She seems to be so perfect

not one single flaw,
Everyone looks at her with envy

If they only knew it all.
Her heart aches with loneliness

and her tears disguised with pride,
Why does she care what they think

its becoming too much for her to hide.
She sits at home and pours her heart out

to a man that doesn't really care,
He never hears a word she says

he looks right through her as if she’s not really there.
She is running out of friends to confide in

and family's gone astray,
Alone and broken hearted,

she slowly fades away.